First of all, I'm so glad that i can join kk life game as the volunteer as well. I had waiting it, wondering it for a long time ago since last year December 2010. I love life game very much cause it's impact and change human life.

By the way, today is the first day of kk Life Game. morning have to wake up early around 8am and arrived at the hall at 9pm. it's started with briefing about how the flow for today event. around 1pm, all the participant arrived. After registered, sport is the first event started for the purposed to break their ice among each team members. At night is focus on their education, follow by sketch and message.

This time, i glad that i can observed them as a volunteer. the conditions are totally different. Participant will be hesitated to earn money, do this and that. Volunteer more to observe what they do, how their reaction, how they feel etc.  I also have a good opportunity to bcum Dai Yi Long borrow money for them to pursue their study. I feel like Dai Yi Long very important as well. Dai Yi Long borrow them money to study. We are bring them HOPE, FUTURE, DIRECTION for them. That's why i always advice them borrow money from me (this is the way i influence them).

To be continue.......

祝福

祝福，听起来很简单。但做起来却一点也不简单。知道能做很多事来改变这一切，但却学会放手。三人痛苦，也好过一人的痛。曾经的经历却让我成熟的面对这一切。追求永远比退出简单的多。但我却只能选择退出。退出不单单要脸带笑容当着没有事情，心中的痛，纳闷，眼眶流的泪，有谁能知。每一天都要刚强起来，当着没有事的感觉。原来爱是不嫉妒，爱是不求自己的益处，一点也不容易。但唯有祷告，靠着神给的力量而度过吧。相信可以的。

暂停写部落格

暂停写部落格。如果这地方不再是帮到人的地方，不再是荣耀神的地方，就不要再写了。我深知我写部落格是希望如有有人处于沮丧时，能够看到我写的部落格而重建信心起来。但我慢慢的远离了这个目标。如果写部落格只为了给某些人看，那么真的太没有意义了。

最近我的心思意念开始变了。我发觉知道的越多，越成熟时，责任也越多。我深知我能向前迈进，但我选择退后。如果这一切不是神的引导，而是自己的益处，我还是退后。发觉到太多事情，很多事情都在变化当中。短短的几个月内，从不喜欢的朋友能够到好朋友。从非基督徒能够到火热的基督徒。从四五年，甚至五六年的男女朋友都能有分手收场。身旁发生了太多类似的事情。距离是最大的挑战。说真的，我自己都很害怕。我曾经也因为距离而倒下了。

最近在和几位刚分手的好友聊聊时，有时会觉分手的原因抽象，有时又很具体。辅导系可能是我应该走的路。我喜欢听人坦诚的说话，我喜欢小组，我喜欢分享，我喜欢彼此鼓励。大学，我有华倩，Clarence，Kelvin做我最要好的朋友。我们彼此鼓励，彼此说出心里最深的心里话。我在我们最低潮的时候彼此鼓励，彼此分享。原因只有一样，有神在我们中间。七月份神学院基本辅导课程即将会参加。我希望学习后，我们够应用在鼓励，扶持我周围的朋友身上。但辅导员往往是最需要辅导的。我相信这句话是没有辅导员认同的一句话。

"Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life."

Seriosly, sometime I wish to runaway from all the trials and temptation. I dont like to feel it again and again and again. Tired of all this things....

Yesterday my friend ask me, why God allowed jealousy... Why he always angry... why it's hard to control his emotion. I told my friend, life is about learning. Wihout all those thing happen in your life, u wont learn, wont pass the test and wont grow up. I love to encourage, council and advice my friends. On the hand, I'm the one who really need to council.

I dont like the feeling of jealousy and uncertain. This is what i afraid the most and it's also what i had experience recently. I know very well what will happen next and how to avoid and also know what to do. But the more i know, the more i'm afraid.

Sometime i scare my heart away from God. The more i focus on other ppls, the more i'm struggle. Think it's time for me to surrender every thing.... EVERYTHING to GOD.... It's not easy, but i know i can do it. I need to reguard my heart above all else, for it determines the course of my life.



*suddenly found a nice website http://bible.cc/

很期待五月二十八号到三十一号的Life　Game！时间就快了。。。

期待当中。。。

看着传瀚，若盈他们从DUMC　LifeGame回来，让我也羡慕了起来

好想参与sibu team的lifeGame。。。好想念以前LifeGame的人

这五月我只能参与penang Team的lifeGame Team。

但我依然期待跟他们一起合作。。。。

首先我需要常常说英语了。。。我的英语很像越来越不像样了。

我会努力学好的！

这次又要准备好自己的心态。

又会到一个陌生的环境。。陌生的人。。。但我很期待！

期待神的带领。LIFE GAME 我来了！